BIDDING GOODBYE (or not)!

As of  9th September:

As i look back at my teenage years, i'm overwhelmed with nothing more than gratitude. Those were the best years of my life, hands down.

The thrills and high's i've had, made life worth living and looking forward to. For years i went to sleep with a secure smile and woke up with one.

Change is big. Sometimes too big to comprehend.

Sometimes you hear a goodbye from people you least expect. And for reasons most ridiculous.

But life MUST go on.

The future looks bleak and thinking of it sends a cold shiver down my spine.

I tell myself.. One day at a time. One day at a time, and it won't be so bad.

' To friends of yesterday, today and tomorrow.

For those of you who haven't heard today is International Friendship day. I have always struggled to define that word, its just impossible to give it a meaning and confine it to that. A famous quote goes 'Friends are the family you get to choose" as corny and cliche that sounds that's the only thing i can think of that comes close.

Its beyond just hanging out and eating at a new place every other week, Its wayy more.
Its a blessing to have friends. I can proudly acknowledge the fact that i won't be a major part of who i am today if it had not been for my friends.

As we move on with our lives and careers, we sometimes also move on from certain friendships, but that doesn't always change the role they once played in your life.

I have all kinds of friends, the ones we are close with for as long as we can remember.. i have people i have been friends with since i was like 3.. and our relationships have only evolved and gotten more awesome'r over the years. And then there are the school friends,, you can never get over them can you? I'm not in touch with all of them, but when ever i do meet up like even if its once a year, we just take it from where we left off. The gap is never felt. Is it like that with everyone out there? I don't know, but i love how beautiful it is.

And then there are people you just met and you become soul mates in a week. The similarity or disparity whatever facilitates the relationship is so crazy? (<- Read that again slowly). You just meet them and hit it off right from the first time and your soon inseparable.

Then there are others you are close to, lose contact for like 3 or 4 years in between and get together again. I have a few friends like that too. Its insane.. we spent so much time just catching up on the lost years.

And then there are others who randomly bump into us every once in a while.. We were never close to them and probably never will be too.. But they are still quite cherished.

I could go on like this forever. Sometimes my friends have come through for me the moments i have least expected them to. And there are also time i have been let down and really hurt by friends.. but i guess that just adds to the beauty of the whole relationship.

In my big move from college to the corporate world one of the things i missed most were my friends.. but things have been amazing ever since i stopped acting like the newbie to whom people need to come talk to and walked up to talk to people on my own.

So this is a post to all those people i have called a friend over the very many years through school, college and other phases. I would give you a all a hug if i could.

This is also to the friends I'm gonna make in the future. Because i strongly believe you never stop needing friends.

Thank you and I love you all and oh yes before i start babbling again, a very happy friendship day.

Ps: The title of this post is so lame. But honestly, i have a block and can't think of anything else.

Routines and Peace.

I missed writing here, i was just checking and its been a month and 8 days exactly since i got here. I was just reading that last post and MY soo much has changed since then.

Life has only gotten better. For those of you who haven't heard me screaming and doing a happy dance, Yes i got the job with one of the big four in the finance world hence right now my MBA plans are on hold at least for a year.

The transaction from being a student to a "working person with responsibility" has been smooth except for minor glitches here and there. I could not have asked for anything better from my employers, i havent been thrown at great speed into anything, YET. Training to assignments everything has been happening at a very comfortable pace. 

So yes life is good, i have nothing really to complain about today :)

But i do need a list of books to read and a decent playlist. My journey to office is a good two hours, and most days im stuck between half sleeping and going up and down my Facebook feed. 

While my life is getting into a peaceful routine i can't help but think about all that our world is going through. Everyday i open the newspaper it literally breaks my heart to see the stuff some of my fellow humans are doing. The Gaza conflict, first the MH 17 and now the Algerian flight.. Is'nt air travel supposed to be the safest?

Closer home in my country the scene is no better, still the same number of horrifying rape cases. And today's newspaper brought the news of a school bus accident where 14 little kids died and rest are just writhing in pain. 

It makes me wonder where we are heading? There is so much violence and bloodshed around its almost as if we are getting used to it. That is even more dangerous than what's happening now.

I hope and pray that there never come a day where such things don't move us. But having said that i think we ought to do more as world citizens than just pray inside closed doors. I still belive the good in the world is more than all the bad. Th e only difference, they have united, we have not.

This calls for more that just candle light marches, wearing black in protest or putting up strong worded statuses, or for that matter even a blog post like this. We need to DO something. We need to MAKE it stop. We NEED to work towards peace.

So this is me, raising my glass to the action we are gonna take, anything big or small that will get us a step towards peace. Peace in our minds, peace in our homes. peace in our communities, peace in our countries and peace in our world.

You'd be surprised how many people stand with you when you decide to take the first step.

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Totally unrelated, I like this song :P

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGB7IWklW3s

Confused.

Hello there!

Have you all had a time in your life too where you wished you didn't grow up, at-least not so fast? I'm in that phase now and i kinda hate. I hate how i have to make "responsible" decisions some of which will determine something as HUGE as which way i'm gonna go in life.

So right now i'm confused if i should study or work. Like till yesterday i was convinced i'm gonna work a year or two and then resume studies as most of the colleges i wanna go to are harping on work experience. But then yesterday i got a call from a college i applied for, to come for round 2 of the selection process.

[That's my single most ugliest drawing. I think my drawing capabilities drop from like a 7 to like a 1/2 when i'm confused.]

I didn't even consider it seriously because honestly i'm quite content with the job offer i got from a reputed company via campus recruitment. But now i can't help but think will i regret it all my life if i don't show up at this college for round 2.

I'm sure of one thing i wanna finish my MBA in the next 5 years. But being sure of that is not getting me anywhere.

I can't really toss a coin on this one. See, this is exactly what i mean by i don't like growing up. I can't help but wonder, can you live a life without regrets in reality. I mean at some point aren't we all faced with a choice like this. Will our decision no matter how wholehearted leave us with no regrets? Is no regrets a reality or theortical concept thrown around?

Decision time.

The Eye.

So I'm finally done with college, i don't know how to feel about that.. Its a mixed feeling of relief of finally being done, coupled with excitement to start a completely new phase with a dash of fear because of so much uncertainty that the future holds.

My decision to stay happy where and no matter how or no matter what, is going quite well as long as i'm occupied. I'm in day four of my break and i have had quite a productive week.

Currently my latest obsession is Ms paint, and i sit hours on it drawing whatever comes to my mind. Here is a sneak peak :P

This one is totally random, it was done for a friend who inspired it. But i'm quite proud of it even if this friend didn't think much of it ^-^

So basically i'm just blogging and instagram'ming away just to show this off!

I dunno what to do next! Anybody have any inspiration for me? nothing? Ok.

I have this vague idea about what i wanna do next, ill shall be back soon with the finished product, until then.. blow your minds out with this one. (Am i making any sense anymore?)

I'm calling this "The Eye".. How creative, right.

I think ill title my post that! o.o
Yes, i title my post after i write. Problem anyone? No? Good.

I'M A WOMAN.

Life is a full circle they say.
So you don't really know if its the end,
Or your just penned.

Both feel the same,
Feels like someone is playing a game.

The highs and then the lows,
Carefully raining down blow by blow.

Your hurt
And left feeling like dirt.

That pervert.
His hands up my shirt..

And down trickle my unnoticed tears,
With it comes true, my worse fears.

But im a woman, we take pride in ourselves.
A pervert can't make me hate myself.

In every woman there is a "man"
Chinese, Indian or Bhutan.

The choice is limited,
The mindset? Narrow and primitive.

Be the victim or proud survivor,
Its time we stopped being back seat drivers.

The mind, it gets this. But the heart?

Its cold and blue,
Foolishly waiting for someone to break through.

Waiting for a smile or hug,
And taking it in, like its a addictive drug.

He loves me, he loves me not.

That was what was running in the girl's head. She could not believe she was even having doubts like that! They have been together for like 3 years.. And now was just not the time to think of it. But yet here she was.

After every text she typed and deleted, after every line she rephrased.. All she could think of was, that.
Weren't things supposed to get easier?
People supposed to mature with time. Why did everything feel like it was happening backyards with her. Why did she feel like things were so much easier for them two years ago. Weren't people supposed to understand you better with time?

And what was he saying? He didn't want her worry bout him or care about him? Is that even possible?
Isn't that kinda impossible when your in love.
Like is there a magnetic force that helps you do that?







[The photograph belongs to an amazing photographer, who also happens to be a very close friend. Its so beautiful, is'nt it?
Anyhoo, anyone need a photographer, to capture just about anything, contact: coach.ms13@gmail.com I assure you, there is no room for disappointment]

As she lay on her belly, staring intently into the blank wall infront of her, she could not help but think if he had someone else in mind, or if he got tired of her, or did he just want to be single and "free" like he called it that day.. But she could also help but feel guilty and horrible bout doubting him or his love.

He was a part of her.. To hurt her, he would have to go through the pain equally.. She told herself, so sane person will hurt themselves.. And yet she had that tiny weeny doubt at the back of her head.. A doubt she was afraid to say out loud.. Is this the shore of the river of pain?

Are these its water that wash over her toes every other min. Is this the point where she has to run away or will she have to fight the tide to stay afloat.

Will it be worth it?

Its a fight she has to fight alone, and the answer will come only if the battle's won.

Dependence

A very mysterious word. Does the world still have people you can depend on blindly? I don't know and im not gonna find out anytime soon.

I dunno if its a girl thing or just a teenage thing.. But dependence creeps out of somewhere in our lives. Even if its for something small, we depend on people.
Whether its family, or friends or acquaintances or even strangers. Its just human tendency to choose dependence over independence.

Its easier too, but the risks are high. And most of the time, not worth taking :)
Soo this is to all those people, who are depending, waiting, and wasting time believing someone will change.. Its time to stop. Stop, get up and take charge
.
Life on earth is short, there are a billion plus people, if this one is not worth it, move on.. You'll find that one person who'll make you believe in everything you only dreamed about
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Get up, dust yourself and prepare for the journey ahead. Its gonna be hard, but worth it :)
And lastly only depend on God, he never lets people down, and i say that from experience :)

Its time, Christmas is here :)

I'm back, after being MIA for quite a while.. Andd I've had quite a busy week, lots of changes. I mean, c'mon! who isn't busy this season.. The season of joy is FINALLYY getting to me, i must say! I'm jollier than usual :P

And i just realized my spell check does not have a "ignore" here o.o. So finally this week, we got our little tree up, and the stars too :D

                                                         [That's the pretty star :)]

And, i had birthdays in the fam that kept me busy. Anyway. even though suddenly time seems to be flying so fast, life hasn't stopped teaching. SO much to learn and eat everyday.

Im pushing my studies, search for colleges and everything else on the back burner for this week. I think its that time of the year, everyone needs to take it slow, and soak in the love and that's exactly what i plan on doing :D

So what's new with you this season?

Inside my little head! :P

So, i was just looking at my blog today, and i realised this is come to be more that just a blog i update regularly. This has become so much more personal now.. yes, i played around a bit and made it more me, but there is a lot that this place needs. Specifically more pictures, i'm working on that :)

But i'm at a point where its no more about the page views or the comments, i mean don't get me wrong, those still pump me up and get me going, but there is a lot more reasons to comeback here everyday and write. These past few days i haven't really been feeling myself and this blog gives me direction, it show me where i belong, and how much i love doing what i do. Even through the many disappointments, i've learnt to be grateful, and remember those going through worse.

To most of you this may just be a random rambling, but to me its a breath of fresh air :D
I love getting on here and reading the blogs i follow and also the ones i don't, i'm more of a reader than a writer person. It kinda completes my day.

Here is to life, and all the unexpected things that come with it :)

Never stop dreaming.

Today marks a year since the gruesome tragedy from Delhi that left us all numb.
But the anger still remains. My blood still boils when think of this past year and the zero progress we've made. The silly controversies that were fought and dirty linen washed in public while the people of my Nation just waited. 
When will the safety of women be taken seriously? When can i walk out wearing what i want and when i want and comeback safe?

When is a question i can never answer, and i doubt anyone can.
But i still have hope. I still dream of the day women are respected and treated with the same respect. I dream of safer night and caring men.

And i shall i keep dreaming. I dream of justice and a system that delivers it.
This post is to all those dreams that we are gonna one day see fulfilled.
#Neverstopdreaming.