BIDDING GOODBYE (or not)!

As of  9th September:

As i look back at my teenage years, i'm overwhelmed with nothing more than gratitude. Those were the best years of my life, hands down.

The thrills and high's i've had, made life worth living and looking forward to. For years i went to sleep with a secure smile and woke up with one.

Change is big. Sometimes too big to comprehend.

Sometimes you hear a goodbye from people you least expect. And for reasons most ridiculous.

But life MUST go on.

The future looks bleak and thinking of it sends a cold shiver down my spine.

I tell myself.. One day at a time. One day at a time, and it won't be so bad.

Anybody else feel lazy today?

Yday was hectic! After another draining day, esp mentally.. i come home and crash early, with no intention of waking up anywhere before 9.

So, today Tuesday i have a day off from college because they are celebrating something or whatever. So i open my eyes and its 7:50 am.. not wanting to be so harsh on myself, i roll over and go back to sleep only to be woken up a good two hours later with my phone blaring ridiculously near my ear! Before i could grope around and try finding it with one eye open, it stops.. so i give up turn the other way round and go back to sleep.. then i get up 15 mins later, find my evasive phone.. set an alarm for 11 am (I gave myself 13 mins, to be exact) and fall back asleep.. after two times of snoozing and cursing my phone a numerous times.. i wake up and drag my feet toward the bathroom.. only to be distracted by what my sister was watching!

So i realize she's watching castle, so i forget all my morning duties and sit there.. we watch three episodes (approximately 3 very short hours) i had to fight and bribe for her to pause twice, once for my bathroom break and then for my foooooood.. which was basicallyy a huge packet of mad angles and packet of oreos.

All that done, i realize the noises i hear are from my stomach and make myself a humongous bowl of noodles. and once i'm done eating i go to my balcony and watch this beautiful sudden downpour of rain, talk in high pitch, do a happy dance, argue about the origin of rainbows..

and when i finally had enough off all the childish talk, i open my laptop to give a project im working on, my much needed attention, and guess WHAT! I feel this crazy intense need to check out the clothes worn by EVERYONE at the Oscars.. so for the next hour or so, i proceeded to check every picture that was clicked on that day and every article written about everyone possible. Once i was done, i logged in here, read a few random posts and felt the need to type everything down about my utterly wasted unproductive day.

Though i prefer to call it a break i much needed  wanted :)

Is it just me or does everyone have days like this in the middle of real hectic week? :)

Okay, gotta go start studying before anything else catches my eye!

Until next time :)

My Day Out.

How long has it been since i first got here? I really dunno. Well, i've come on here a couple of times in just this past week alone.. written a line.. stared at the screen till no end, logged out and continued with life.

I don't know what to write about, i don't know if i feel like writing too. My days are getting better.. but life is still being a scramble. Between looking up colleges, different options of study, applying for jobs and checking out companies.. I'm surprisingly having quite a lot, okay maybe not lot.. but I'm having fun.

Okay, for those of you who remember i live in Hyderabad.. we have this huge big industrial every January that i used to go to ever since i was a kid. It was like a tradition in my family. So this year, out of the blue i decided i needed to do it, and i did. And was it as fun as it usually is? HELL YES.

[An amazing photographer friend let me use these beautiful pictures that were clicked that day. Are they the coolest or WHAT?]

I went with some really good friends..  the first we do when we enter after the regular security check, and me mumbling about how meaningless it is, is buy popcorn and walk around and just take everything in. Four odd years didn't change a thing.

                                       [That's kinda how i looked, feeling all pleased with myself]

and then, the walked continued with occasional halts to point and laugh at someone or something or it just ended in one of us buying something totally random.

And then we spotted this,

and just had to buy it even though i was pretty full alreadyy.. so we did and i was supposed to wait till we find a found a good spot to click, but i didn't, so i don't have a picture with cotton candy now :(

Sooo we kept walking till we arrived at the one place i was searching for right from the moment i entered.

okay, so the picture might be a slight over exaggeration.. But it was insane fun.. we first went on the Giant wheel, they call it that for all the right reasons.. after i had done screaming and begging everyone to stop it,  as i waked out i thought the worse is over..

But for some weird reason i was wrong. I used my two legs to go to this..

and buy tickets for thiss..

And i still cant decide if it was the best or worst part, okay fine, who am i kidding, IT WAS SOOO MUCH FUN!!.. This picture doesn't even come close. It was insane, the rush was something else. Honestly? 90% of the time i was on it, i was thinking its too early to die, im like not even married yet  i haven't eaten frogs yet or something. I was screaming the whole time it was mostly "OH MY GOD" in different tones and pitches.. and a few other things I'm hoping no one else heard.

well, i came back home with an amazing pair of shoes and a bag full of memories. It was my day out, something i needed and it was all and more i expected it to be.

[DISCLAIMER: I do not claim ownership to pictures 2,3,4,6. They belong to their rightful owners and are used only as a representation here.]

Metamorphosis

That's quite a big word spell :P
Basically, change. That's what it literally means to me. In this ever changing crazy amazing sometimes, depressing life of mine.. there is so much change happening. I'm metamorphosing. I know that this term is generally used to indicate growth and positive development in animals.. i'm using it in a different sense today. 

There is so much happening i'm just like "Hey! Not so fast, life! I need a min to breathe" or something! Its insane how much a year old can take in a day.. Honestly, i'm left panting and puffing at the end of each day. 

And i hate it. You ask, why? Because i hate not being in control, esp when it comes to my life. I have/had everything planned.. and some little thing decides to take a detour.. annnddd there comes crashing down my whole properly thought of life plan.

Its hard.

But it has taught me so much. You know what i feel? Everyone should go through one life altering mess.. why? Because this is where you see whom you can actually trust. this is the point in my life where i saw who can put aside everything and be there, by everything i don't just mean one evening or one day literally everything.

This is the place i saw the people who cared, but were too busy to do anything about it. And can i be real honest? it hurt so freaking much. As much i would like to say i don't really care, and it doesn't matter.. i just can't. Because it mattered

You know what i needed most in my weakest moment? Not someone who told me i'm strong enough to get through this.. but just one person to tell me they'll hold my hand and go through this with me. One person to tell me they'll be right there to give me a push when i felt like giving up.

And forever grateful to Have not one but quite a few people around to help me. But i got help from sources unexpected. The people i always thought will come through to me showed me the door.. and that was hard to accept.

Anyway, lesson learnt, tears dried :)

OKAY, too much serious talk! Wanna hear something yum? Today is PIE DAY! :D

Exactly! put your aprons on, or at least call a baker friend and get yourself a yummy piece of pie todaay to celebrate :D

Its time, Christmas is here :)

I'm back, after being MIA for quite a while.. Andd I've had quite a busy week, lots of changes. I mean, c'mon! who isn't busy this season.. The season of joy is FINALLYY getting to me, i must say! I'm jollier than usual :P

And i just realized my spell check does not have a "ignore" here o.o. So finally this week, we got our little tree up, and the stars too :D

                                                         [That's the pretty star :)]

And, i had birthdays in the fam that kept me busy. Anyway. even though suddenly time seems to be flying so fast, life hasn't stopped teaching. SO much to learn and eat everyday.

Im pushing my studies, search for colleges and everything else on the back burner for this week. I think its that time of the year, everyone needs to take it slow, and soak in the love and that's exactly what i plan on doing :D

So what's new with you this season?